1 00:00:23,481 --> 00:00:24,607 Dear Diary... 2 00:00:25,233 --> 00:00:26,901 go fuck yourself. 3 00:00:30,864 --> 00:00:33,408 Just kidding. I don't know what to write in this stupid thing. 4 00:00:36,703 --> 00:00:38,580 Anyway, hi. 5 00:00:40,040 --> 00:00:40,957 My name is Sydney. 6 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:44,502 I'm a boring 17-year-old white girl. 7 00:00:45,045 --> 00:00:47,172 I'm not special, is what I'm trying to say, 8 00:00:47,797 --> 00:00:48,882 and I'm okay with that. 9 00:00:53,386 --> 00:00:56,639 -We moved to Pennsylvania two years ago. 10 00:00:58,850 --> 00:01:01,144 And not, like, a cute part of Pennsylvania either, 11 00:01:01,227 --> 00:01:02,896 but corn and cabbage and shit. 12 00:01:03,480 --> 00:01:06,649 Like, my town's won the grand prize for most polluted air in America 13 00:01:06,733 --> 00:01:08,651 for a bunch of years in a row now, so... 14 00:01:09,277 --> 00:01:12,072 -...yippee. 15 00:01:15,658 --> 00:01:17,994 Ms. Cappriotti made me promise to do this. 16 00:01:18,078 --> 00:01:19,662 Promise you'll do this. 17 00:01:19,746 --> 00:01:21,664 She said it might help with my moods. 18 00:01:21,748 --> 00:01:23,458 It might help with your moods. 19 00:01:23,875 --> 00:01:25,210 I keep losing my temper. 20 00:01:27,045 --> 00:01:30,590 -I don't want to, but it just spills out. 21 00:01:30,673 --> 00:01:33,218 It's 'cause my dad sort of died... last spring. 22 00:01:33,301 --> 00:01:36,096 So I'm supposed to write... what, now? I don't get it. 23 00:01:36,513 --> 00:01:38,640 Anything. Everything. 24 00:01:38,723 --> 00:01:40,058 Whatever comes to mind. 25 00:01:40,642 --> 00:01:42,602 And now no one knows what to say to me. 26 00:01:42,685 --> 00:01:44,771 Think of it like you're just talking to yourself 27 00:01:44,854 --> 00:01:46,940 and no one will ever read it but you. 28 00:01:47,023 --> 00:01:48,608 Not even the guidance counselor. 29 00:01:48,691 --> 00:01:49,734 Can I just... 30 00:01:50,652 --> 00:01:51,820 use my phone? 31 00:01:51,903 --> 00:01:55,615 Hmm... Your phone'll be distracting. Don't you think? 32 00:01:55,698 --> 00:01:58,034 I'd like you to have something a little more... 33 00:01:59,202 --> 00:02:00,286 therapeutic. 34 00:02:00,787 --> 00:02:02,497 These things are never easy, 35 00:02:02,580 --> 00:02:05,542 but I do want you to at least attempt 36 00:02:05,625 --> 00:02:09,087 to have a normal high school experience. 37 00:02:09,170 --> 00:02:11,297 I mean, she's pretty all right, I guess. 38 00:02:11,714 --> 00:02:13,675 Even if she does smell like an old hippie. 39 00:02:14,425 --> 00:02:18,471 Anyway, here's to a normal high school experience, 40 00:02:19,430 --> 00:02:21,224 whatever the fuck that means. 41 00:02:21,307 --> 00:02:24,686 And yes, during arousal, there is an increase in all sorts of things, 42 00:02:24,769 --> 00:02:27,814 including adrenaline and, of course, blood flow, 43 00:02:27,897 --> 00:02:29,858 and the blood flow continues down 44 00:02:29,941 --> 00:02:33,027 and then gets trapped within the corpora cavernosa. 45 00:02:33,111 --> 00:02:36,114 The penis expands, and this is how the Homo sapien male 46 00:02:36,197 --> 00:02:38,741 is able to hold an erection. 47 00:02:41,494 --> 00:02:42,537 Yes. 48 00:02:42,620 --> 00:02:44,664 From my experience, Mr. File, 49 00:02:44,747 --> 00:02:46,749 the holding of an erection is far more successful 50 00:02:46,833 --> 00:02:48,418 in the hands of a Homo sapien female. 51 00:02:50,753 --> 00:02:52,005 Very funny, Mr. Lewis. 52 00:02:52,630 --> 00:02:53,923 Just talkin' science. 53 00:02:54,007 --> 00:02:54,966 Moving on. 54 00:02:55,049 --> 00:02:56,926 When a female gets sexually excited, 55 00:02:57,010 --> 00:02:58,386 there is also increased blood flow 56 00:02:58,469 --> 00:03:00,847 -to the genitals... -Ah. Oh, come on, fire crotch. 57 00:03:00,930 --> 00:03:03,099 -Laugh. That was funny. - ...proceeds to swell. 58 00:03:03,183 --> 00:03:04,184 Why is all this happening? 59 00:03:04,267 --> 00:03:06,269 -Your scrotum looks different than others. 60 00:03:06,352 --> 00:03:08,438 That's an asymmetrical scrotum. 61 00:03:08,521 --> 00:03:11,107 - My best friend is Dina. -Having one is not at all unusual. 62 00:03:15,278 --> 00:03:16,905 She's such a badass. 63 00:03:16,988 --> 00:03:19,282 Normally, I don't think she'd choose me as a friend, 64 00:03:19,365 --> 00:03:21,367 but we both moved here around the same time. 65 00:03:21,951 --> 00:03:26,164 Both the new kids in town, you know, so, guess I kinda lucked out. 66 00:03:27,832 --> 00:03:30,293 Before Dina, I mostly just kept to myself. 67 00:03:30,793 --> 00:03:33,713 I'm not the kind of person that likes attention, really, 68 00:03:33,796 --> 00:03:35,882 but she has this way about her that... 69 00:03:36,382 --> 00:03:38,092 she just makes me feel different. 70 00:03:38,968 --> 00:03:40,970 She was with me when I found out about my dad. 71 00:03:41,054 --> 00:03:42,138 Okay. You ready? 72 00:03:42,222 --> 00:03:44,057 -She held my hand. -One, two... 73 00:03:44,140 --> 00:03:45,183 We cried. 74 00:03:46,434 --> 00:03:49,854 And now, since then, she keeps me laughing 75 00:03:49,938 --> 00:03:51,981 when all I wanna do is melt into the floor. 76 00:03:53,650 --> 00:03:57,445 Which sort of made me realize I've never had a best friend before. 77 00:04:04,452 --> 00:04:08,039 So, I'm standing there, trying to get by, and he's all like, 78 00:04:08,122 --> 00:04:09,457 "Oh, who's the new girl in town?" 79 00:04:09,540 --> 00:04:11,876 And I'm like, "Shut up. It's me, Dina." 80 00:04:12,293 --> 00:04:15,129 Wait, this is Brad... Lewis? 81 00:04:15,213 --> 00:04:16,047 Yeah. 82 00:04:16,756 --> 00:04:18,341 He's sort of sweet, you know? 83 00:04:19,968 --> 00:04:22,428 And then he asked me to homecoming. 84 00:04:26,099 --> 00:04:27,850 Wait, and... and you accepted? 85 00:04:27,934 --> 00:04:30,937 No. I told him to take his washboard abs and chiseled jawline 86 00:04:31,020 --> 00:04:32,188 and get out of my face. 87 00:04:33,064 --> 00:04:35,483 Yeah, of course I said yes. 88 00:04:37,819 --> 00:04:39,779 Uh-- Oh, my God. You had sex with him, didn't you? 89 00:04:40,905 --> 00:04:42,615 -Holy shit. 90 00:04:42,699 --> 00:04:44,492 No way! Holy shit! 91 00:04:44,575 --> 00:04:47,078 You gave Bradley Lewis your V-card? 92 00:04:47,161 --> 00:04:48,454 Shh... 93 00:04:48,538 --> 00:04:51,249 -Tell me he used a condom, because-- -Yes, of course. 94 00:04:51,874 --> 00:04:52,709 I know. 95 00:04:52,792 --> 00:04:55,128 Dina just got her braces off, and her boobs suddenly arrived. 96 00:04:55,211 --> 00:04:58,631 So, of course, golden boy Bradley Lewis takes notice. 97 00:04:58,715 --> 00:05:00,133 So, what, are you guys, like, 98 00:05:00,216 --> 00:05:02,218 suddenly girlfriend and boyfriend or something? 99 00:05:02,302 --> 00:05:05,138 I mean, we haven't put a label on it yet, but... 100 00:05:09,434 --> 00:05:10,977 I really like him, okay? 101 00:05:11,519 --> 00:05:13,479 This is the worst. 102 00:05:13,563 --> 00:05:15,315 Yeah. Oh, yeah. No. Sure, I get it. 103 00:05:15,398 --> 00:05:16,733 Just give him a chance. 104 00:05:19,986 --> 00:05:23,823 Oh, come on, there's gotta be someone you sort of like. Just a little. 105 00:05:27,702 --> 00:05:30,163 I don't know. I just guess I haven't really thought about it. 106 00:05:30,246 --> 00:05:31,372 Well, think about it. 107 00:05:31,873 --> 00:05:35,335 And then maybe we can all go to homecoming together, like a double date thing. 108 00:05:36,461 --> 00:05:38,171 -Hey, babe. -Hey! 109 00:05:38,254 --> 00:05:39,422 Sorry I'm late. 110 00:05:40,089 --> 00:05:41,132 -All good, babe. 111 00:05:41,215 --> 00:05:44,093 Ugh. They both call each other "babe." Kill me right now. 112 00:05:44,594 --> 00:05:45,428 Hey, Syd. 113 00:05:46,012 --> 00:05:46,888 Bradley. 114 00:05:46,971 --> 00:05:49,140 Do you think your mom could hook us up with some burgers? 115 00:05:49,223 --> 00:05:50,725 They're just so great here. 116 00:05:50,808 --> 00:05:52,268 Huh. She's not working today. 117 00:05:52,727 --> 00:05:53,770 I was just asking. 118 00:05:54,187 --> 00:05:55,063 Okay. 119 00:05:55,146 --> 00:05:57,023 Want a burger, Brad? Let's get a burger. 120 00:05:57,106 --> 00:05:58,274 I've got some cash. 121 00:05:58,358 --> 00:05:59,192 - Yeah? -Yeah. 122 00:05:59,275 --> 00:06:01,694 -Wanna share one, babe? -Yeah. Oh, ketchup. 123 00:06:10,870 --> 00:06:12,038 Help yourself. 124 00:06:12,663 --> 00:06:13,498 So... 125 00:06:15,083 --> 00:06:16,626 Dina's just great, isn't she? 126 00:06:17,460 --> 00:06:18,544 Mm-hmm. 127 00:06:22,340 --> 00:06:24,300 Jesus, do you ever smile? 128 00:06:25,051 --> 00:06:26,469 Not today. 129 00:06:28,846 --> 00:06:31,015 So, what have we decided? 130 00:06:31,099 --> 00:06:32,308 Whatever you want, babe. 131 00:06:32,809 --> 00:06:34,936 -Please. Please stop. -You gotta try one of these fries. 132 00:06:35,019 --> 00:06:36,854 -I wish you would just stop talking. 133 00:06:36,938 --> 00:06:40,608 Wipe that smug smile off his stupid, stupid face. 134 00:06:43,236 --> 00:06:44,737 -Oh, shit. - Oh, my God. 135 00:06:45,154 --> 00:06:46,114 Oh, fuck. 136 00:06:46,197 --> 00:06:47,740 - Are you okay? -Wait. What? 137 00:06:47,824 --> 00:06:49,200 Yeah, fine. Just give me a minute. 138 00:06:49,283 --> 00:06:52,036 - Take a tissue. - Gimme a minute, all right? 139 00:06:56,124 --> 00:06:57,333 So, here's the deal. 140 00:06:58,126 --> 00:06:59,919 Today, I almost convinced myself 141 00:07:00,002 --> 00:07:02,004 that I made Bradley Lewis's nose bleed 142 00:07:02,672 --> 00:07:04,006 with my mind. 143 00:07:04,465 --> 00:07:05,675 Right. 144 00:07:07,260 --> 00:07:09,262 Mostly, I just need to chill out more. 145 00:07:09,804 --> 00:07:12,890 I am not losing my first and only very best friend ever. 146 00:07:13,808 --> 00:07:14,851 I'm happy for Dina, 147 00:07:15,476 --> 00:07:18,312 and if dating Bradley Dickhead Lewis makes her happy, 148 00:07:18,396 --> 00:07:19,605 then I guess I'm okay with it. 149 00:07:19,689 --> 00:07:20,690 Oh, hey, Syd! 150 00:07:24,694 --> 00:07:25,528 Hey. 151 00:07:25,987 --> 00:07:27,363 Stanley Barber. 152 00:07:28,156 --> 00:07:29,866 He lives down the street from me. 153 00:07:30,575 --> 00:07:33,244 Where I feel shitty about basically everything about myself, 154 00:07:33,327 --> 00:07:35,663 Stan is the master of zero fucks. 155 00:07:36,122 --> 00:07:37,915 Oh, my leg fell asleep. One sec. 156 00:07:40,001 --> 00:07:41,043 Aah. 157 00:07:46,090 --> 00:07:47,341 Can I walk with you? 158 00:07:48,342 --> 00:07:49,427 Sure. Why not? 159 00:07:50,136 --> 00:07:51,012 Cool. 160 00:07:53,598 --> 00:07:54,432 Cool. 161 00:07:55,850 --> 00:07:57,977 Stan is kind of... weird. 162 00:07:58,394 --> 00:07:59,270 You okay? 163 00:07:59,729 --> 00:08:01,606 Shoes. Who needs 'em? 164 00:08:04,859 --> 00:08:07,778 Uh... so, Bloodwitch, am I right? 165 00:08:08,279 --> 00:08:09,113 What? 166 00:08:09,864 --> 00:08:11,574 Bloodwitch. You like their music? 167 00:08:11,657 --> 00:08:13,910 That's a... terrible name for a band. 168 00:08:13,993 --> 00:08:16,037 Nah. Perfect. 169 00:08:16,704 --> 00:08:18,247 Bet they sound like shit. 170 00:08:20,625 --> 00:08:23,002 Well, I mean, I have-- I have 'em on vinyl... 171 00:08:23,836 --> 00:08:26,631 limited edition, gatefold and stuff, 172 00:08:26,714 --> 00:08:29,884 if you wanna... come over, and we can listen sometime. 173 00:08:30,468 --> 00:08:31,302 Oh. 174 00:08:32,428 --> 00:08:33,721 We can get high. 175 00:08:34,138 --> 00:08:35,640 I have never been high before. 176 00:08:37,183 --> 00:08:38,267 Yeah, maybe. 177 00:08:38,976 --> 00:08:40,269 I mean, you don't have to. 178 00:08:40,353 --> 00:08:41,604 I was-- I was just, you know... 179 00:08:42,480 --> 00:08:45,608 We-- You know, we live so close, and we've never really hung out before. 180 00:08:50,530 --> 00:08:51,697 Uh, no, I guess we haven't. 181 00:08:54,867 --> 00:08:57,495 But, yeah. Uh, maybe we should. 182 00:08:58,329 --> 00:08:59,163 Yeah. 183 00:08:59,789 --> 00:09:00,957 Cool. Uh... 184 00:09:01,791 --> 00:09:03,000 Let me know. 185 00:09:08,339 --> 00:09:10,174 What a world we live in, Sydney. 186 00:09:25,940 --> 00:09:27,858 I live with my mom and little brother. 187 00:09:28,317 --> 00:09:29,777 Sydney! Is that you? 188 00:09:29,860 --> 00:09:31,571 Mom and I haven't been getting along lately. 189 00:09:31,654 --> 00:09:34,240 Nope. It's an axe murderer. Good thing you asked. 190 00:09:34,323 --> 00:09:36,576 Ha-ha! Very funny. 191 00:09:38,286 --> 00:09:42,873 Hey. So apparently, Karen's dog ran through a screen door or something, 192 00:09:42,957 --> 00:09:45,543 so she had to go to an emergency vet. 193 00:09:46,335 --> 00:09:48,546 -Okay. -So I'm gonna pick up her shift tonight, 194 00:09:48,629 --> 00:09:52,633 which is fine 'cause I owe her two shifts from the time Liam ate all that cheese. 195 00:09:53,843 --> 00:09:56,637 Well, thanks for telling me your life story, Mom. 196 00:09:56,721 --> 00:09:59,348 No. Wait, come back here. I'm not done yet. Eyes on me. 197 00:10:00,516 --> 00:10:03,102 Okay. Question. Big question. 198 00:10:03,185 --> 00:10:04,687 Have you seen my stockings? 199 00:10:04,770 --> 00:10:07,523 They were in the bathroom. They were hanging over the shower curtain? 200 00:10:08,190 --> 00:10:10,026 Oh, sorry. I thought they were dirty. 201 00:10:10,109 --> 00:10:12,528 -No, they were drying. -Well, I found them in the bathtub. 202 00:10:12,612 --> 00:10:15,364 D-- Well, where are they? They're my last pair. 203 00:10:16,574 --> 00:10:17,533 I sort of... 204 00:10:18,284 --> 00:10:19,201 washed 'em. 205 00:10:19,285 --> 00:10:20,911 Wait. In the washer? 206 00:10:20,995 --> 00:10:24,165 Yeah, and I guess they sort of ended up in the dryer, so... 207 00:10:26,667 --> 00:10:28,544 Oh, great. 208 00:10:29,545 --> 00:10:32,423 Now I get to feel like sausage while I'm serving it. 209 00:10:32,506 --> 00:10:35,843 You don't really have to wear 'em, do you? No one wears 'em anymore. 210 00:10:35,926 --> 00:10:37,887 -Like, since the '90s. - Can you-- 211 00:10:37,970 --> 00:10:41,265 Can you just make sure that Liam does his homework and eats some dinner? 212 00:10:41,891 --> 00:10:43,601 Isn't he old enough to make sure himself? 213 00:10:43,684 --> 00:10:49,815 Sydney, can you just do something for me, anything, just once, without questioning? 214 00:10:51,442 --> 00:10:53,402 Here I thought I was being so charming. 215 00:10:53,486 --> 00:10:55,112 Nope. Not even a little bit. 216 00:10:56,030 --> 00:10:57,823 Really doesn't matter what we're talking about. 217 00:10:57,907 --> 00:11:00,034 --Mom and I could sit in silence 218 00:11:00,117 --> 00:11:03,537 for the rest of our lives, and she'd still annoy the crap out of me. 219 00:11:09,877 --> 00:11:11,921 Hey, Goob. Done your homework yet? 220 00:11:12,004 --> 00:11:12,922 Hours ago. 221 00:11:13,339 --> 00:11:15,091 Soon as I got home. What about you? 222 00:11:16,842 --> 00:11:18,469 Uh... I'll get to it. 223 00:11:20,471 --> 00:11:24,266 Come on, Syd. Mom says you have to work hard if you're gonna succeed. 224 00:11:25,101 --> 00:11:29,730 Yeah, well, the plan's always been for me to sit back and watch you succeed, Goob. 225 00:11:30,314 --> 00:11:31,649 Oh, hey, who knows? 226 00:11:31,732 --> 00:11:33,943 Maybe one day, if you really work hard enough, 227 00:11:34,944 --> 00:11:37,196 you get to be the one to pay for my funeral. 228 00:11:38,489 --> 00:11:40,491 -How was school today? -Well, um... 229 00:11:42,159 --> 00:11:44,328 Richard Rynard punched Toby Gardner in the face, 230 00:11:44,412 --> 00:11:46,831 and he got sent to Mr. Coffee's office. 231 00:11:46,914 --> 00:11:47,790 Oh, yeah? 232 00:11:48,666 --> 00:11:52,837 Yup, and I think I might be next, so... I'm devising a plan. Check it out. 233 00:11:54,380 --> 00:11:56,590 Holy shit, Goob. Is that for you? 234 00:11:56,674 --> 00:11:58,426 Yup. Designed it myself. 235 00:11:58,509 --> 00:12:01,178 Breastplate, shin guards, spiked gloves... 236 00:12:01,262 --> 00:12:03,764 But I'm not so sure about the helmet situation just yet, 237 00:12:03,848 --> 00:12:06,726 'cause I don't wanna block my peripherals, you know, just in case. 238 00:12:07,435 --> 00:12:09,937 It's really cool, man. It's some of your best work yet. 239 00:12:10,020 --> 00:12:11,605 Yeah, it's basically my Mark One, 240 00:12:11,689 --> 00:12:13,858 and the first suit's always the hardest to design, 241 00:12:13,941 --> 00:12:15,901 so it's still a work in progress. 242 00:12:16,360 --> 00:12:18,195 And, sorry, what was the plan again? 243 00:12:18,279 --> 00:12:21,282 Well, I'm gonna build the suit and kick Richard Rynard's ass. 244 00:12:22,158 --> 00:12:23,659 Oh. Vengeance. 245 00:12:23,743 --> 00:12:24,660 Got it. 246 00:12:28,539 --> 00:12:29,665 My family. 247 00:12:30,249 --> 00:12:32,209 I guess we've never had a lot of money. 248 00:12:32,293 --> 00:12:35,963 Like, every place we moved, and we've moved a lot, 249 00:12:36,046 --> 00:12:37,715 it's always some place like this. 250 00:12:38,382 --> 00:12:39,884 It's like a lottery, I guess. 251 00:12:40,426 --> 00:12:43,179 Some kids win big time the moment they're born. 252 00:12:44,472 --> 00:12:45,514 The rest of us, 253 00:12:46,515 --> 00:12:49,769 we're all stuck with scratch-offs and bottle caps and shit. 254 00:12:58,277 --> 00:12:59,904 -Liam? 255 00:12:59,987 --> 00:13:00,905 Yeah? 256 00:13:03,657 --> 00:13:05,618 If Richard Rynard ever touches you... 257 00:13:06,577 --> 00:13:08,704 before you get your suit built to kick his ass, 258 00:13:10,456 --> 00:13:11,957 I'll pull his throat out... 259 00:13:12,792 --> 00:13:15,419 with my bare hands right in front of Mr. Coffee. 260 00:13:15,920 --> 00:13:17,087 Really? 261 00:13:17,171 --> 00:13:18,923 Yeah. Yeah, like this. 262 00:13:20,216 --> 00:13:21,675 -You are so weird. 263 00:13:21,759 --> 00:13:23,093 Yeah, I know. 264 00:13:25,054 --> 00:13:27,264 Okay, so... confession. 265 00:13:27,681 --> 00:13:29,934 I started getting these zits on my thighs. 266 00:13:30,017 --> 00:13:31,936 -I am straight up disgusting. 267 00:13:40,528 --> 00:13:43,531 I've tried zit cream and soap and all sorts of junk. 268 00:13:44,031 --> 00:13:44,990 Nothing helps. 269 00:13:45,741 --> 00:13:47,743 -They're not even that fun to pop. 270 00:13:47,827 --> 00:13:49,537 Stop! 271 00:13:52,289 --> 00:13:54,083 It's probably just puberty. 272 00:13:55,751 --> 00:13:56,752 I don't know. 273 00:14:15,229 --> 00:14:17,273 So, Stanley Barber texted me. 274 00:14:17,857 --> 00:14:19,942 -He made me listen to Bloodwitch. 275 00:15:04,445 --> 00:15:07,531 Sometimes at night, I want to touch myself, 276 00:15:09,199 --> 00:15:10,200 but I don't. 277 00:15:13,412 --> 00:15:14,538 Peanut butter helps. 278 00:15:16,248 --> 00:15:18,751 ...always in a fast-food rut, 279 00:15:18,834 --> 00:15:20,920 or buying and not cooking it. 280 00:15:21,003 --> 00:15:22,671 Millions have discovered the secret... 281 00:15:22,755 --> 00:15:25,549 The later Mom gets home, the more wine she drinks. 282 00:15:27,176 --> 00:15:28,469 What are we watching? 283 00:15:29,428 --> 00:15:30,429 Don't know. 284 00:15:30,512 --> 00:15:31,805 ...to the original... 285 00:15:31,889 --> 00:15:35,601 We haven't talked about Dad since he killed himself in the basement. 286 00:15:36,143 --> 00:15:37,519 AC's broken. 287 00:15:37,603 --> 00:15:41,023 The unit's probably just... overheated. 288 00:15:41,774 --> 00:15:43,651 It's hot as balls in this house. 289 00:15:44,360 --> 00:15:45,653 Open a window. 290 00:15:46,195 --> 00:15:49,406 It's that heavy thing we're all too afraid to talk about. 291 00:15:49,823 --> 00:15:53,577 I got called in... to the counselor's office. 292 00:15:54,161 --> 00:15:56,372 -Why? What did-- what did you do? -Nothing. 293 00:15:58,040 --> 00:15:59,124 She just... 294 00:16:01,377 --> 00:16:05,005 She wants me to have, like... an outlet or something. 295 00:16:06,507 --> 00:16:07,967 An outlet for what? 296 00:16:14,723 --> 00:16:16,433 Just, sometimes it feels like... 297 00:16:20,604 --> 00:16:22,690 the people I love don't love me back. 298 00:16:25,818 --> 00:16:26,777 Well... 299 00:16:28,404 --> 00:16:30,531 Maybe you're aiming too high, hon. 300 00:16:41,125 --> 00:16:43,627 She's such a bitch sometimes. 301 00:16:44,169 --> 00:16:45,587 Dad would have understood, 302 00:16:46,380 --> 00:16:47,464 but he hung himself, 303 00:16:47,965 --> 00:16:49,299 so I guess I'm on my own. 304 00:16:55,389 --> 00:16:57,433 Sometimes I wonder why he did it, 305 00:16:57,975 --> 00:16:59,768 and why we never talk about it... 306 00:17:01,895 --> 00:17:03,856 ...and what the hell is going on with me. 307 00:17:05,733 --> 00:17:08,819 Why sometimes I feel like I'm boiling inside. 308 00:17:12,156 --> 00:17:13,115 'Cause maybe... 309 00:17:18,996 --> 00:17:21,415 ...I am way more fucked up than I thought.